Soyeon's mending world

Kindergarten gallery

At the same time, I have an identity issue myself. My friends found that I have ADHD in the Netherlands
because my friends also have ADHD.

I have been struggling reading and studying the paper-based exams. I lost so many stuff and forget many things.
Finally, I could know why I am different from other people. When I'm back to Korea, I needed to figure out it and I got diagnosed and took a stimulant pill to read books. I found this makes me organized, but some way I can't fee like myself.
I became totally another arranged person. but I won't imagine the unnecessary things that I used to.
I felt I lost my creative identity. It felt I lost my colourful vivid childish world and it turned to black and white dark movie.

I'm still confused myself, who I am and who is the person when I took the pill. I appreciate who I am myself, even I forget many things but I could more highly concentrate on my creative works.

When I looked at the sketchbook I really found who I was as nature. I want to connect with childhood me myself.
Except for this pill, when I was in middle school, and high school, I was educated to be fit in the social statue.
I wanted to be an artist, but I was forced to do more math and science than other things. I love making stories and books but I had to sit down and read the books even I can't read the book. I pretend to be a good student for a long time and was under stress always. To go to the art school, have to draw 5-6 hours the same drawings to show my skills.
I want to say to my child me "you are right, be yourself, don't fit in a social standard, go-ahead to be an artist" I want to give more confidence myself and cheer me up to do a better job! Also, want to tell the children or students who are forced by adults, don't be scared of being strange, and different

Researching about children exhibition
"This Contemporary Art Museum Is Run by Kids"

https://www.artsy.net/article/artsy-editorial-contemporary-art-museum-kids

mushroom world

This is one of my childhood
drawing, which has strange shape of mushroom

Recently, I came back to Korea because of Corona.
I found the old sketchbooks that I made during childhood.
The drawings are very free and creative.
As I studied a lot of art skills and also worked in the company as a graphic designer,
I lost my originality and creativity.

At the KSMoCA International Art Fair this past August, the first clue that this was no ordinary art fair was the size of the booths. Painted and spackled by students from Martin Luther King Jr. School in Portland, Oregon. Oregon, the stands were just slightly taller than they were.

I want to make a real mushroom world exhibition for my young version. "Dreams come true"

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